MJ fans,Are u hurting with the loose of our beloved MJ? I'm not ok! I've got my days! What do u miss about MJ?

I have been a #1 fan of michael since the early 80's when i first saw him on MTV in the video ''BILLIE JEAN''--That is over 26 years ago of loving him.I love everything about him.I love his looks,moves,style,smile,his beautifull captivating eyes that seem to smile too whenever he smiled.His whole face would led up and he was beautifull and sooo angelic. HE WAS JUST OUT OF THIS WORLD! I also loved how shy he was and yet amazing on stage. He was sooo talented and hard working. I loved his childlike personality and his love for kids,animals,our planet and how much he wanted to just make the world a better place and that it's self was very y.I especialy love how much he gave God praises for everything and how humble he was.He had the biggest heart and i thing it was sooo cute how much he loved us fans.He was always saying he loved us.He even said he loved us from the bottom of his heart.Besides his family he loved his fans and for that alone i love him more! I guess the reason i am having even a harder time with his untimely death is that i never got to meet this beautifull soul and i always wanted too before i died,but then he dies? I can't deal with that!! Tonight i don't feel good. I have been crying and I'm depressed. Also i am obessed because i can't stop watching anything of him on tv,online,listening to his music only and buying everything i can of him.I never though i would be in such a deep.deep mourning for someone i never met and that that pain would be soo bad. My heart hurts. Do any of you feel the same? PLEASE NO HATERS RESPOND!!!!! HAVE RESPECT AND LET US GRIEVE MJ WITHOUT HAVING TO HEAR STUPIDY!