It seems like i have this personality disorder..?

Hi there, I am so sorry you feel like this, i wont say i understand how you feel, as we all feel different i do understand the symptoms however even if they affect us different, It's not overly unusual i can ure you, Self confidence is very underestimated. It is not a social disorder but more of a self confidence disorder. Again i wont insult you by saying it gets better but i do recommend therapy to help you overcome a least a few of these feelings you have and in time perhaps you can deal with them better and maybe even use the happy face as i call it to hide behind untill you feel comfortable. i wish you all the luck in the world and hope you can overcome this and stand proud.